A Crossroads

I think I have hit a crossroads in my life. One that I must choose to go right or left. I know for certain I cannot maintain the current path. So, forward, not an option. Back, impossible. So which way do I go? I am sad a lot. There are amazing people that bring me joy in my life. And there are others that bring nothing but hurt. Seems like an easy descision right? The problem is the one's that bring me pain have in the past been the source of so much joy for me. To turn away from them now means giving up on the hope that they truly are not this being that they are portraying but the person that I once knew that cared so deeply. On the other hand, to turn away from the people that bring me joy is turning my back on what could be a new chapter, a new beginning. An opportunity to trust again. Layer in my children and I am sunk. I am not built for this. I don't want to turn my back on anyone. But doing nothing turns my back on both. This world can be so cruel. Let go, Let God...