No Good Deed Goes Unpunished

When will enough ever be enough?? I mean really, how much can one person give? I love to help people out. If you need anything, call Tod. You can count on him. I am always willing to help. But somehow, someway, my helping seems to cross lines. I cant help this person without pissing this other person off. All of a sudden my loyalties are questioned. "I have known you longer" or "I am family" or "how dare you help them"? I do these things and expect absolutely nothing in return. Give up full days, hand over countless dollars, go above and beyond all expectations and truly expect nothing in return. But here I am, stuck in the middle of loyalties and hurt feelings and God knows what else. Why? Oh forget it, it is just my rant for tonight. I am sure I did wrong and will be forgiven eventually. Like the old saying goes, no good deed goes unpunished. Guess I better watch out in the future where I lend a hand. Sucks!

Another One of Those Days

It's one of those days, I can tell from the start
From the moment I woke up, and the heaviness of my heart
Not close to healing, my wounds are deep and filled with salt
I know I must let her go, and realize it is not my fault
But until then, it will take all the might that can be found
To rise up, and push myself off this cold, cold ground
I appreciate the reassurances, the prayers and positave thoughts that are sent my way
But until I find self-worth and confidence in myself, this depression is here to stay....